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June 15th, 2026
Once again, nearly forgot to write, but I'm really trying to keep it up! Woohoo! Today I went to work, and I got some stuff done! Did some annotations, collected some good data. I'm still concerned about being able to get the data as quick as I want, but whaaaaaatever. I'm having so much fun that I don't really care.
God, I need to break the habit of scrolling my night away. It's so bad! I talked to Willow a bunch, though. I wanted to watch a movie for work, but whaaatever. I'll do it tomorrow. I forgot my meds when I left this morning, so I think I made the best of the day I had. My meal plan is out of money, which is weird because I thought I got a certain amount of money every week? So I guess I'm starting my dining hall adventures soon.
I know I don't have to keep up with writing here every day, but I'm worried that if I don't I'll stop forever. That's been the case with all of my journals so far, so I'm determined to keep at it. In other news, I've got a lot going for me this week!! WILLOW IS COMING ON THURSDAY AHHHGHHGhhhh I'm so excited I love them sosososososo much.... and we're seeing a movie with my parents on Saturday, and I'm seeing a movie wednesday, lots to come!
All right, I don't think there's anything else to report. Mental state today was mediocre. Soupy. Not great, but I didn't have a breakdown or anything. Here's to taking my meds tomorrow!
Love, Grace :3
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June 14th, 2026
Wow, I nearly forgot to write one of these! Anyway, today was kind of a nothing burger kind of day. I took a shower, went to Trader Joe's with Sam, got some stuff there, but otherwse I've just been slogging around all day. Making my chip shrine took foreeeeeever, and also my new mood tracker took up a weird amount of storage. I hope I don't use up all of my storage here too quickly!! Right now I'm feeling pretty lonely, but I'm gonna try to go to bed so it doesn't head into breakdown territory. I'm just experiencing relationship anxiety. It's not great. It also might just be 11pm and I'm sleepytired. I dunno. I'm so super excited to get into other things, though. I think the next objective for my site, whenever I update it again, is doing my apple journal. Wow, it sure is raining cats and dogs outside! I am sooooooooooo tired blegh.
I miss Willow. I don't think they'll read this, so I'll just say I'm kind of worried about them. I don't know how else to articulate it without sounding assholeish so I'll just leave it there. I wonder what kind of person I come off as in this Diary. My writing ehre is very loose and stream of consciousness. I'm also just kind of obsessed with how people see me- and I think i should nip that train of thought before it gets weird. Weird and bad. Overall, an unproductive and bleghhh kind of day. Blegh.
Love, Grace :3
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June 13th, 2026
So much happened today. And last night. I'll try to get to it all. Firstly, I don't want to say anything more about last night other than that it was bad, and I need to work on relying on an entire support system. I'm only even writing it down because I think the reflection is important for therapy purposes.
Secondly, onto my actual day, I went with Sam to an Irish festival! It was really fun :] I'm proud of myself for committing to plans and going out, because we had such a fun time. We found a little baby mantis, who we named bulgy, I got to see really cute kids Irish dance, I had an epic pulled pork sandwhich AND cornbread, and overall just had a really good time :] We're going to the grocery store tomorrow! Anyway, onto the MOST IMPORTANT PART
THE NEW YORK KNICKS WON THE NBA FINALS!!!!!!
I got to watch it on the phone with Willow (I love you Willow) and it was actually so crazy. The Knicks got a bucnh of free throws right at the end and they were awesome and all the guys were awesome and I've never felt more patriotic for my beautiful country of New York!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have so much joy and whimsy in my heart!!!!!!!!!!!
Love, Grace :3
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June 12th, 2016
Today is a sleepy day, a very very sleepy day. I had this whole idea that I was gonna do so much coding when I got home, but I'm just kinda sat here and scrolled for a few hours. I'm so exhausted, this week took a lot out of me for whatever reason. I think I miss Willow. I mean, I always miss them, but I think I miss them now in particular.
The next time I'm seeing them is the week after next, probably. I'm hoping I can get them to take me to an O's game!! They've never actually been able to take me into Baltimore proper while I've been visiting, so I think it'd be nice. I'm also having a bit of an existential afternoon, unfortunaately, but that's really just what scrolling does to me. I'm falling down the pit of feeling like I'm wasting my life. But I'm not! I love my partner, I love my job, I'm about to go into my third year of undergrad, my resume is super awesome and cool and full, I've literally coded this website for myself, I'm taking my meds, I'm really doing more than I ever have been before (reading for pleasure, coding, crocheting), but I still can't shake the dread. Casey thinks that writing in a journal like this will help me feel less bad about myself, but now I'm just writing about feeling bad about myself. Blegh.
I shouldn't be so pessimistic about it; at the very least, it's been really fun so far. The next thing I wanna do is make a shrine page for chip so I can join a webring for people's pets! Webrings look really cool; I wanna get into the more social aspect of hosting on Neocities!
I had a good day at work today! I don't know if I was very productive, but not for lack of trying. I think I just need a bit of a break from work today, let myself relax and feel good. I tried to call Willow, but they didn't pick up. I was supposed to call an old friend of mine yesterday, but they didn't get around to it until I really needed to go to bed. I'm really, really hungry. I'm trying to decide whether I want to eat my microwave bulgogi beef with rice or soup dumplings.
God, I hate living in Brecon. It's a really nice dorm, but the walk is. So bad. It makes me not wanna go anywhere........ever. But I went to pinwheel provisions and the movies yesterday! Pinwheel provisions was yummy, I got a cue cranberry/rosemarry drink and a BLT with avocado crema. It made me feel good about myself to eat a healthy dinner! I'm not sure how I felt about the tomatoes, though. It's been ages since I've had them sliced like that. And the air conditioning was sooooo nice in there also; I think I should go there more often, even if I don't see a movie. The cafe is in the movie theatre, by the way. It's pretty epic. Sorry I don't explain a lot, if you're reading this. I sort of figured nobody wanted to or will. The only audience isssssss me! Unless it isn't, but I guess I wouldn't know unless someone told me.
I got tickets to see Lawrence of Arabia with my Dad, so that'll be fun. I feel like as a wannabe film buff, I have to watch it for my own personal development. And they're playing Yojimbo too, but it's kinda weird because it's on like....wednesday. I mean, I don't have anything else going on, so I might as well. That's also something I should see for my own personal development. Anyway- Lawrence of Arabia is Four Hours Long. So we'll see how I do with that. Maybe I should just watch There Will Be Blood a million more times!
I'm starting to get hunger pains, and I'm running out of things to say, so I leave this one off here. Willow, if you're ever reading this, I love you :]
Love, Grace :3
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June 11th, 2026
Okay so, what happened last night! My neocities page wasn't applying anything from my style sheet! In the process of trying to fix this (all I had to do was hard refresh...oops!!) I wanted to be able to push my stuff from vscode directly to neocities yadda yadda yadda ANYWAY I somehow put. EVERY FILE ON MY COMPUTER. Into a submodule. And in trying to undo the changes, I deleted like 90 PERCENT of the files on my computer!!! Cue a massive meltdown (which I think was pretty justified), but my wonderful wonderful partner ended up helping me retrieve them. And then I fixed whatever was wrong. So everything's fine!! But. Oh my god.
I'm writing this entry on my lunch break, and I gotta say, I've had some serious wins at work this morning!!! I managed to create the real and accurate versions of some data visualizations I've been working on using ImageJ and ImagePort :] The work computer is having a storage issue, so I can't start getting data from another film (I work with film) until the other fellow using the mkv file rips her stuff. She's doing stuff with scene boundaries! Very cool!
I'm also going to see Carrie tonight at my local theatre. It's a cool little indie theatre!! I'll have to make like a socials page soon and link my letterboxd so everyone who comes here can see my super awesome reviews. The rest of my afternoon will probably entail more annotating. We're annotating screenshots of There Will Be Blood! I can explain more about my job and what I'm doing if anybody reads this and wants to know hehe. But my local theatre is showing sooo many things I wanna see! I might go see a movie tomorrow, too. The student discount is awesome.
I might try to include a mood tracker or something like it as part of the diary. I think it would help me categorize better? Especially since I'm bringing this to therapy. Anyway! I gotta go back to work soon, so bye!
Love, Grace :3
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June 10th, 2026
I just had one of the most stressful experiences possible can't write about it now I'll do it tomorrow lol
Love, Grace :3
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June 9th, 2026
Welcome to my first diary entry!!! Ahh!! I'm really excited that I'm actually throwing this thing together. Casey and I have agreed for what feels like forever that a diary or journal would be really good for me to put down my thoughts and catalogue my progress with mental health and things.
I'm not really sure what to write here! Work was good, and I'm probably gonna be spending most of my evening working on this page. I'm really excited! I also might watch The Master tonight for some extra cash and better... work stuff, I guess, but we'll see. The week is still young.
I think that being able to type my entries instead of spending ages hand-writing them will help me do it more. I generally prefer analog methods of journaling, but this site feels like a project that I want to contribute to, you know? It'll be fun!
Anyway, I'll probably keep working on this site for the rest of the day. I should add a log! This entry was mostly to text everything. Talk to you soon!
Love, Grace :3
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